Cracks in the Crystal Ball

So, as I begin my first blog, the first major question was what to title it. It seemed all too clear to me as I listened to my new Pink CD. I have a new favorite song, "Crystal Ball". It appeals to me at this moment in my life. The main theme falls in the lines,

"Fortune teller that says maybe you will go to hell.
But I'm not scared at all...
of the cracks in the crystal, the cracks in the crystal ball."

As someone completely obsessed with planning and preparing for the future, I have recently taken on the challenge of living in the moment. I have absolutely no idea what the future holds for me, but it is definitely not what I once planned. But, I'm beginning to realize that is a very good thing. There is so much I didn't know about myself or my world when I began making my plans. I would have done things differently, and I might not have ended up becoming the person I'm supposed to be.

My favorite lines in the song are

"I'm learning to be brave in my beautiful mistakes.
Oh I've felt that fire and I've been burned
But I wouldn't trade the pain for what I've learned
I wouldn't trade the pain for what I've learned."

The mistakes that I've made are mine and mine alone. Each step has led me to right now. I have absolutely no idea what is to come, but for now I'm going to enjoy reading by the pool, love kisses from my adorable nephews, laugh with my sisters and learn each second from the beautiful children I teach. Not only am I not afraid of the cracks in the crystal ball, I embrace them. The joy of this journey is having absolutely no idea where or how it will end.